Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do.

Have you ever felt so lost that you had to come back where you where coming from step by step?
I've had, and sometimes iI feel like I am getting lost again.
There are days that I wake up and as the time goes by, I feel like I am losing something and that
feeling seems to start over and over again everyday.
I always had to be at the top of all the expectations that everyone had made for me, and each time
I failed, I felt like my world was crashing down and all I could do was smile and say: "hey don't worry I'll beat it the next time",while I was tearing myself for not being good enough, blaming myself for not being able to get my goal and knowing the others were going to judge me for being a loser.
Now that I am what everyone calls an adult, the only one I'm afraid of dissapoint it's me, because I know I can be my worst enemy and my hardest boss.
I would lie if I say that I don't care about what they say, because everybody cares about what the other people think, it is something we learn since we are kiddos and we keep until we die.
Even when we are dying we are worried about the people who could be thinking: What you could have been in the past if you had chosen another way or decision and who you really are at the present moment.
But now I'm done with this, I'll stop worrying about what the general people think, and just try to become who I decide to be, because at the end of it all, I am the only one who's going to live my life, and I am going to live it the way I want.