Hey Dad

"Once again you dissapointed me..., but what hurts the most is that after 14 years of lies and betrayal, I thought you could have changed..., I though that you loved me in some kind of way, that you cared about me even if it's just a little bit...but anything has changed, im still the 4 year old kid who's waiting for her father looking impatiently at the clock and thinking the phone is going to ring one moment or another and he's going to say: "hey i'm sorry honey,im late but i'll be there in a few minutes". But that has never happened, and it will never do. I'm tired of thinking that's my fault and that I have to change to make you love me,I realised you are not worth it, you don't deserve my love neither my kindness, I don't even hate you that's too much for you, i'm only angry with myself because I wasted so much time waiting for you. I don't understand how did I think that you could help me, knowing you have never been there for me. So, from now and then, i'm going to accept that you are gone and you will never come back, and i'm not going to expect you to help me, to call me not even to care if i'm alive, because the only thing I need to expect from you is to never show up in my life again."